Oh Laura, I wish I was there to share a cup of coffee and try to cheer you up. I think we all can relate to what you were feeling today. I wish so often that Amanda could just be like every other kid. That I didn't have to run to the Dr. every five minutes. That we didn't have to run around getting bloodwork done. That I didn't have to cart syringes and emergency medicine everywhere. That I could just let her go play and not have to badger her to be back at 2 for your afternoon meds. That I didn't have to sit in the hospital for weeks on end.... But you know what...I'd do it all again in a minute for one smile that little girl throws my way. One little giggle from your daughter cheers you right up. Believe me sweetie...you have no need to feel guilty about feeling overwhelmed. We all have our days and that's why this is important. Sometimes we need to vent to others who understand and arent' going to report us to DYFS, for being angry once in a while about the situation. Try to have a better day tomorrow, and if you don't, Stop right back here. :) Eileen