Hi Laura. Have you tried to use chocolate pudding instead of applesauce? It seems to hide the taste better. I'm not sure about honey and a small child (they say not to give it to babies)but my mom (years ago) use to crush aspirin in honey when I was sick and I remember really liking it. As far as everything else you are going through..well I've been there too. We all have our down days. I have been so stressed over my daughter at times I felt like I was going to have a breakdown. But I just cry and then feel better and realize I am just reacting because I am a mother who loves her child so much. And so are you and you should feel proud of that. Do something to pamper yourself for being such a good mother!