I'd love to hear about this experience you had during childbirth. I find this sort of thing fascinating and I always read whatever I can get my hands on. I won't push, it's up to you... If you'd rather not post it here, my e-mail is lauri4tr@aol.com Bonnie - I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. I lost my father almost 5 years ago, and it's something that took well over a year just to "get used to". It's a difficult time, I hope you have a lot of support around you. You'll find plenty of that here.