I'm glad to "hear" you get it out of your system. Hope it helps. I wish you the best of luck with your surviving child. Erica is watching over you to help guide you in the right direction. I haven't spoken to you in a while but I do remember your strength and conviction. I'm sure it still gets to you like it was yesterday. There is nothing more frustrating than to not be able to trust a doctor who is caring for your precious little child!!! I wish you God's strength and love, Lynn