Hang in there & think often of the good & happy times. My mom passed away at the age of ONLY 47yrs-that was 11yrs ago & I still cry, and miss her so. But I know she is ALWAYS watching, and we often look up & talk to her. The emotional numbness will eventually subside...I had to handle all the arrangements, and packing of her possesions, & settling her estate (I was only 27yrs old at the time) so I know what you mean about being numb. Love & prayers. ~Deb L~