On September 10th my family got ready for a much anticipated trip to orange county. We were to be godparents for a cousin's baby. While there we ate out for every meal. We were there for four days. My three children had a wonderful time. When we returned my nightmare began. My 3 1/2 year old daughter (nonCAH) and my almost 2 year old son(CAH salt wasting) started showing signs of the flu. I took them to the pediatrician three days in a row. By the third day my daughter had to be airlifted to a children's hospital two hours away. As I was sitting next to her bed in ICU the next morning, Our nurse told me that ny son was in the emergency room back home with my husband and they were preparing him for the helicopter flight to the childrens hospital. Both of my children tested positive for th E. Coli 0157:H7. Something we had eaten while on our trip. My daughter got worse and worse and her kidneys shut down. After three days in the hospital she was schedule for surgery to place a tube in her tummy in order to do dialysis. We neded to get rid of the impurities in her body. That night as I stood over her bed and kissed her and hugged her and told her how much I loved her, she looked so peaceful. She had endured so many pokes and prods. I kissed her and prepared to go to sleep in the chair next to her. Three hours later she went into cardiac arrest and I watched frantically as the doctors tried to revive her. But she looked so peaceful and I knew that she was with God. Now, almost two weeks later we are finally home and my son has fully recovered without any side affects other than having a moon face from being on a quadruple dose of steriods for twelve days. But oh the pain I feel right now is so unbearable. I miss my little girl so much I just don't know what to do with myself. I feel like there is an elephant sitting on my chest and I can hardly breathe. I know there are some wonderful people on this board who have also lost a child. Please help me. I don't know how I am going to get through this.