You are right, you have lived our very worst nightmare. I wish I could take your pain away. You are right. There are MANY wonderful people here that have lost their angels. I wish there was something I could say to heal you. I will say many prayers for you. God, if I could just hug you right now I would. I will ask my family and friends to pray also for you. I am so, so, sorry. I am glad you came here. There will be so many that will be posting here with words of encouragement and open arms. God bless you and your family, always.