I sadly know your pain. My daughter died 1 Sept 1997. So sad and what a nightmare!! The why - never stops and then the regret - what if I didn't, and only if , should have, could have!! Jessica looked as if she was asleep. Her brother was 3 and 1/2 years and she was 2 1/2 years, he saw her in the hospital and was so angry that we didn't bring her home. "Go get her," he would cry. They did everything together. She would have been in kindergarden this year. So I know!! Roberta preston@kreative.net