Barbara, I am so sorry. I cried when I read your post. I cannot even begin to imagine your pain. I lost my father almost 2 yrs ago and there are times that it still hurts pretty bad, but I can tell you those times are fewer and farther apart as time goes on. You will never stop loving and missing your child, but in time you will come to accept it. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. God WILL see you through this. Your daughter is in a better place where there is no CAH, no illness, no worries, only peace and love. God bless you and hold you in his heart.