i also know what you are going through.i lost my daughter brittney 5 years ago due to rsv(she also had cah).she was 2 1/2 years old when she died.it does take time but just knowing that someday we will she our children again gives me peace to go on everyday.you will have your goods days and your bad days but slowley it gets better.just keep her memory alive and you will get through this.. god bless and take care..e mail me anytime!!!!