To all my friends on the CAH board,

I have had barely enough energy to get through each day without my beautiful little girl so I have not visited the board in a long while. I did not realize that you all were trying to reach out to me untill I got an e-mail from LynnT (thank you Lynn). So I frantically searched through all of the pages of the board searching for that little bit of support..... and there you were. Just when I thought I was all alone, there you were. Thank you, thank you so much for not forgetting about me. I just can't describe this pain, it takes your breath away with no relief in sight. And the question that can't be answered...WHY?  Why did God need my little girl so? Every day is a struggle for us. And with Christmas coming up and Mariela's birthday in January (she would have been 4) the next few months look black...very black. So please, continue to remember us in your prayers and thank you for your friendship and support.