Please try going to www.hygeia.org .I wrote a post on it under "helpful websites". It provides parents with an excellent forum for pouring out their emotions. I hope it's helpful to you. It is a VERY legitimate site run by an ob/gyn who specializes in compassion. I have counseled many people with losses. While your pain will always be with you I pray that you will eventually turn it into a positive force that will enhance someone else's life. One of the reasons the pain is so bad is because the love you have for your daughter is all bottled up inside you with no where for it to go. Eventually you will find someone who needs extra love and compasssion and you will have that little bit extra to give. And that person's life will be changed for the better because of your caring. And that is how your daughter will live on.