i have read this board often and have been a silent observer. The pain of losing my child 6 months ago has been tremendous. I went to the website you wrote about and i cannot tell you how much it helped me. The floodgates opened up and i finally feel like i have found something that may help me.The beauty of the stories ,even though they were sad, touched me in a very special way. They were all telling my story in one way or another.I also read the post you wrote about trying to turn this emotion positive. After visiting that site i know it can be done. Instead of mourning my loss this Christmas; I choose this time to turn things around. I will now try to celebrate my son's life and since i can't get rid of this emotion, i will try to use it to help others. Who can be more compassionate and understanding to someone who lost a child better than someone else who has done the same.I know I am rambling, but for the first time in a long time I think I might do okay. God was looking down on me when he sent you to this board. I cannot believe how unbelievable Dr. Berman is to have developed such a necessary site. If no one else gets any help from your post, please know that it made an incredible difference in at least my life.Thank you is not enough.