What a beautiful little girl. My heart and eyes got very full as I looked at her pictures.I truly hope you find some releief from your pain. Doing things like your brother's website and such are helpful- they make you feel like you're doing something active and maybe gaining a little control when you've had no control before. Once again I encourage you to visit  www.hygeia.. I just know how it has helped so many people. I hate to see anyone not use all the resources they can get. You cannot do this alone.