Too scary!!! If I didn't know better Julia, I would have thought I was sleep walking last night and decided to post my worries on here. Word for word, thought for thought, you matched me. It was if I wrote your post. Amazing. I too look at my daughter the same way. I too have mulled over having another child, because of ME. Not her. My fears. The fears that seem to over shadow what my definition of what a good mother should be. I want to be stronger and have worked on it all this year. It was one of my New Years Resolutions. I am still working on it. Good luck to you.

Danny, your words were awesome. Thank you.