My mother thought I should post this . You grow up feeling differnt. It may not be always out front but it is in the back of your mind. I have had acne, pms, I was on the track team, good grades. Things have changed this year . We found out at Johns Hopkins that they did more than they told my mom  and it is not a good job. My feelings are all messed up . I read that most girls grow into there clitoris’s around the age of 12 or 13 . I wish they hadn’t of pressured my Mom into having that surgery . She didn’t care how I looked but she said those doctor’s sure did. Maybe If my Dad were not dead things would have been different. I would have liked to have thought he would have saved me from their knives . It should have been my decision.   Unless she has some problems like a friend of mine , who had to have some surgery.There are probably no great answers but I would have been happy to have an orgasm, maybe I can but so far I haven’t. 17 and greiving for something I can’t get back. Starting to rembember things I want to forget. Needing to heal  and not sure how.

Mr.Carrlton I hope this is not to offending .