I believe you need help.  I teach Middle school and I see kids like you every day!  I don’t know what has made you soooo bitter; yes you have had it rough I’m sure, but life is good.  God is good!  I’m sorry you are so mad!  Maybe you should try an antideppresant.  Just a suggestion.  I take paxil, and I love it.  I never needed anything until I became a mother, and then my world totally changed.  I was never sad; lots of people think if you take something like that it is for sadness, but I just became very anxious.  Anyway I really wish you could become happier.  About the raves, I’ve never been to one, but from what I have heard there is alot of drinking, drugs, and often sex.  To me that is a bad party! I have always felt that people of have to drink and do drugs really hate themselves because they can’t just be themselves and have fun.  Now, I’m not a prude either because I love to have a drink every once in a while, but I am proud to say I have never been drunk nor have I ever used drugs.  I honestly feel sad inside for you.  I hope you can become a happier person. 

Thanks,

Carrie