Hi all,

I’m afraid this might be long, but I am so upset. This year (starting last Oct.) has just been one of the most horrible years in my life. First Chelsea was diagnosed with NCAH and put on cortef, after a huge struggle with her pediatrician and my demands that SOMETHING WAS WRONG and she needed to see a specialist. Then she immediately went into (if not had already gone into) precocious puberty at age just barely 8 and was put on Lupron.  We struggled with nasty phlebotomists, a doctor I had to struggle to form a working relationship with, my husband who wanted very much to stick his head in the sand about the whole thing and me, feeling totally alone in my fight for this kid and her health. Chelsea feels awkward, big, smelly, and different. She is a great kid who puts on a happy face most of the time, but I have watched that spark wane as this year has gone on. Then we went through that horrific thing with her precious cat, after just losing another cat we had to a brain tumor.  Chelsea is now struggling with her self esteem and her will to do her school work which has never even been an issue before. I have started her in therapy.  She has had one session and if I wasn’t there would have snowed the therapist, but I told the therapist she has self esteem issues and the therapist then started asking harder questions and Chelsea began to cry. Chelsea cries a lot now. My once happy happy child is depressed and sad and even this new, bouncy preciously cute puppy is not perking her back up. At her last Lupron injection appt. the pediatrician discovered that she had grown 3/4 of an inch and gained 3 pounds. Chelsea lost it and started crying in the office. She isn’t supposed to be growing! Her puberty has progressed some too. That isn’t supposed to be happening.  We have an Endo appointment on Dec. 9, and we will see where her levels are. Her BO is worse, she is getting acne and greasy hair again, and she complains of headaches a lot.

Now to top off my wonderful year, I have been the victim of an internet fraud scam that told me I won $2,500,000.00 and looked ligitamate enough. We went through the trouble of faxing the info they requested ( winning numbers, serial numbers, name, phone) to them and they faxed back requesting a fee for court filing of paperwork. I got on the internet today and googled "how to verify internet lottery winnings" and up pops this site "LOTTERY FRAUD" and in it were almost identical copies of the letter I received with the exact same numbers and serial numbers on them. We are not rich people. We live week to week. I homeschool Chelsea and have fibromyalgia so bad that I could not work a full time job. That money would have changed our lives. My faith in the world just plummeted to an all time low. 

As has been discussed in past threads, I also suffer from depression, which is one of the symptoms of severe fibromyalgia. I am on medication for it. It is working or I think I would jump off a cliff. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that things COULD BE WORSE.  How long can one tell themself that and keep having things happen to strain it?

Any suggestions that anyone has on how to help Chelsea would be greatly appreciated. She is on a swim team and her last meet was a disaster. She had a false start (dove in before the timer went off) and then got disqualified for not touching with two hands in the breast stroke race. She was the last one in the shower at the gym and she was just standing in there crying. My heart is breaking here. I don’t know how to help her.

My husband and I are also in therapy and have been struggling with our marriage for years. He hides in his work to avoid any problems with Chelsea or our home life. I have to deal with it all alone. I am tired.

Thank you, all of you, for being here to listen. I am grateful that I found this site and feel as if there are people who understand at least part of what I am going through.