Thanks everyone and I’m sorry for what happened Mary I really am. As a kid one older kid went up to and said "Hey Ian I believe you have a hairy one get it out"

I didn’t but it’s only an example.

I’m on antidepressants at the moment as I have been down. As everything with cah has got to me. It was only last month I found out anti puberty drugs WHERE available in the 80’s. Thats why I need to see my old Doc on why he missed it.

Don’t worry I won’t lose my temper I will be professional in my meeting but I know now I will cry in frount of him. I just know.

To aimee I’m learning to be a learning disability nurse (mental retardation)

I love it and I work partime with learning dis children. I do the nursing needs. Peg feeds etc.  I look after two kids who where born normal but where battered as babies and now they need 24 hour care. It has made me think about my life. Then there are the autistic kids a right handful but everyone a character. All I can say is GO FOR IT I love the hands on. Once I get two years experiance working I can apply for a scholorship in the USA.  I may go for it. It will be a fresh start for me.

As a male even I shed a tear for the way I was treated. I wish more males would come forward and speak. Was I the only one who could ejackulate at 9 years old? I’m sheding a tear now and I’m so so greatful for your responses. I love you all for it.

I do want another male to talk to and share experiances who is not ashamed to be open about what happened. I hope they come forward.

Thanks everyone

Ian