Dear Danny,

You know why I’m here then - Don’t you? .....Hanging on by a thread and jaded but still a small glimmer of what you are saying is out there. I’m not a fluffy bunny BUT I really like the ones that are, I just get on my jaded horse when I know women that know their husbands would never did anything like that BUT I’ve meet their girlfriends. I do like the idea of getting married and that person being the only one- I actually think that would be the highest form of being erotic. There is a song by U2 - "Where one but were not the same, we’ve got to carry each other, carry each other" that is sexy - I think marriage is sexy.

So, not sure if you all are getting where Steph is coming from becasue this isn’t about sex and it’s a cold way of thinking about it but it’s her or me using another human being to see how the part that was put in by a surgeon functions before finding someone you care about Because if the darn thing doesn’t work it is easier to deal with that with someone that you don’t really care about .....vs someone you do and then being hurt. Is this right or wronge to do this? I don’t know? I used a guy that way and to me he was nothing more that a human dialator used to dialate the canal that was put in - He was a medical tool ...nothing more (this has nothing to do with Saturday Night Fun). Steph wrote about the canal being put in also - She is 22, from CANADA and here the same words.  This 22 year old is to me expressing how it feels to process a surgery that was do to her.