THANK YOU for what you do for Mitzi and not letting the doctors peek at her whenever they like. From the ages of " I can’t remember " to 14 or 15 I had a male doctor examining my pelvic area every 3 months. I then got a female doctor which examined me until 17. At this point I just told them they could not look because I had my period or something.

At 18 I went to the adult hospital for regular 4 month check ups but they have yet to see my pelvic region. A few months after switching away from the Childrens Hospital I had a new battle to face with my new doctor. I found myself in the ER with type 1 diabetes and that has since been the main concentration my endo has been interested in. We still did the normal blood work and med adjustments but CAH was in a way, put on the back burner.

It was not until 6 months ago when I asked my endo about dilators and I was referred to the gyny I am currently working with. I must admit the routine 3 month check ups that were simply blood work + the doctor examining me for 30seconds to a minute and him touching me softly is something I do feel strongly about. I feel as if I have been violated.  I know it is something that ’had’ to be done, but I hated it and did not even understand at the time why. I knew I had to take pills for the rest of my life, I knew I was apparently different down there but that was it.

I believe that this played a part in how I reacted to men in my future. I never did think " I don’t want them near me " but I never let myself get near them emotionally and therefor that kept them away. Essentially, without any males in the picture I would have no fear and would not have to deal with the thought of ’what if’. I only had female friends and even today that is true but I know guys perceive a woman on how she lets her self be seen and I am finally able to ’wind-down’ a bit more and be more relaxed.

I’m glad that I am finally seeing a gyny but guess what.. she has a student too. sigh, here we go again....

I am glad you know the difference between needs to see and wants to see. So Cherry, on behalf of Mitzi, thank you and keep up the good work.