Apology accepted but really it wasn’t needed because like you I do understand how CAH blows at times. I had this nurse that kept saying that we want you to be happy. I’m like woman who are you to judge my happiness scale? this is me happy. It’s like she hadn’t met someone with a chronic medical condition. With the cancer certain support groups therapist hospital run- forced smile happy stuff where the gang of woman w/ cancer meeting at the local pub- more real and a lot more fun because deep feeling expressed instead of happy on my P ’s & Q’s. Cah sucks in that the focus in popping out a kid - it’s liked groomed for that from the surgery slicing and genital exams but if it doesn’t happen then another blow. ****, born with this condition and not able to drop a kid ..failed again but have you really failed because it takes more to be a parent then having sex and giving birth. Lot’s of foster kids looking for mothers.

I for one don’t expect anyone to be happy happy 24/7.

I was having a melt down about the cancer and melt downs pass but the nurse was like I’m critical and strong ...lady scared and frustrated- anger my way to puss forward- she never got it.  I’m wallowing in low self esteem and she is calling me firm and calm ...good act i have huh?

peace