I accepted this was done to me never happy but the reality is that my mind was wired to the genitals that were taken and they meant well with what  they did. A clitorectomy isn’t anything to be happy about and nor is the labiaplasty and the man made vaginal canal and this was the best for the time period blah blah the havard surgeon meant well and so did the endo. The didn’t play around and thiswas done to make me look normal to fit what society expects and I understand that. I’m greatful that at least they waited until age five to see what gender I leaned toward. I had a big uterus and they wanted to put it to work and that is a lot for a little kid. I could of waited on the surgery but age five was very forward thinking but this surgery was done so this child would fit in socially and err it is also just fixing what the adrenal gland created and for period flow. I wrote in the past  that i liked the way I was born- nothing like it really but knew it wasn’t quite right and yet it didn’t bother me maybe because  it was me. The docs back then were child needs this done to ID  female when thereality is that you Id based on your brain and not the surgeon’s slice and dice. It’s an adrenal gland correction the surgery is logical up the prader scale and for this post was trying to understand why parents also face the decision of maybe surgery for an enlarged clitoris.

Normal depends on family ideals/ perspectives.

I’ve never felt different from me. Everyone is different in their own way. This surgery for me was needed for an outlet for periods and they hoped reproduction - they lost because them have certain ideas about how hashi thyroiditis is treated and what I thought never mattered becasue the endo, surgeron, and students spent their time with their only concern the uterus and to change me into something that i wasn’t but they thought it was for the best.  

  No Apology needed.