Hey Aimee!

You know the more and more I read your posts about this subject, the more and more I worry about you. Did you ever consider some kind of couseling to work through your bad experience? You truly need some kind of counsel to find away to take those horrible feelings and work with them in some way where you are somewhat to put them behind you. You know our buddy Dr. Phil says, "You don’t have the power to change the past. What is done is done and it was a horrible ordeal that you had to deal with and I acknowledge that and respect that. (said in my best Dr. Phil voice) But my friend you have the power to change the future and how you deal with it." I heard him say that to a number of victims from rape to murder. I myself took a long time to forgive the doctor that misdiagnosed my daughter at birth that almost killed her because of his arrogance. But someone told me I am holding myself hostage by not letting go of it. His life has gone on. It took my breath away when they said that. To this day I don’t agree with what he did, but I have let go of it and am much wiser and peaceful today because of it. Think of the possibilites if you find a way to cope with the past! Think of your future husband that is waiting for you. You deserve to find that place of healing. In letting go of this bad experience doesn’t mean you are agreeing it was all ok. In letting go is saying I am going to rise above it, and stand stronger from it. I can survive. You are a beautiful person that deserves that peace in your life. Peace be with you Aimee. peace.