This is another CAH subject that I would love those smart folk to study.

Yep, I do have a temper but I also have tons of patience and am not a person that is quick to anger.

I’ve never been kicked out of school, bars (that I can remember -kidding ; ) or fired but did have one manager compare my anger to the "Wrath of God" : ) and another one did ask me if I carried a gun which I responded "Like I would waste the bullet on you." Ohhh yes another lady stated that I was "angry as a bomb thrower." But, I always got good reviews and customers like me.

People tend to laugh at what I say- disregard me ...I guess they think I’m funny but I’m not funny after I would bring their work and they would say take it back -I told one lady .."Oh will see what your manager says about that ..." then I got this grandmother running after me eatting her words going please don’t do that but for as however angry I can get? I’m also a helpful person because I told her that I would and did her her with her work. Another time after waiting three hours for a doctor ....I was irrate and no didn’t need theraphy or someone to keep the situation a certain way or needed blood levles checked......I just needed something to eat and nothing more. I’ve talked with other adults that have CAH and they have commented on this also .....that yeah need food.  

 

I’m not a threat to myself or anyone else and that one manager guy was a jerk that had seven staff members quite on him in six months and they ended up getting rid of him after I left....geeez other managers would pull me aside and tell me that they found him uncomfortable : ) so he was just irritating and that got me angered besides not helping the clients like how I thought they needed to be helped ......so nope not the cortsione level but just a bad job fit for me and even something like that was a good learning experience. I reflect back know that he wasn’t bad but someone that maybe just didn’t know how to relate and get what was needed from him staff.  Plus, I had cancer forming was anemic and wasn’t the best either.

I’ve used my anger also in a positve way like when I worked in food service ....geeeez love food - I’m a foodie.  This one lady manager and other worker were going to short change this customer on a piece of fish and I just went furious on them because if someone did that to me I would be pissed and never eat there again. One less customer= less money for us all and job in jepordy = that anger came from wanting to survive .......errrr back then that anger was if they feed this customer a c*** peice of fish then less tip for me and then less beer for me which made me angry.

 CAH levels ?/?/?? lol you can control that to some extent but we are also born with the excessive androgens splashing everywhere. You are regulating the adrenals now but it’s also been inprinted there as well. And not this oh she plays with trucks c### which gets their papers written but it is  for example  when I was taking back a mini skirt for a different size the part that makes you tell the sales girls that a prettier than your fat self "Noooo  You will help me .....Now !!! " When they give you the once over and tell you they will be there and they go on talking and laughing folding clothes as you wait. I had the head of the Department store come out of the woodwork and do my exchange  ....lol

Yes, had my levels checked and they are fine. My endo is the best and you all should be so lucky to get someone like him but this is my personality. Is it because of the CAH itself ? maybe? Is it because my ethnic background is German? I’ve always thought twice about being angry around anyone German.   Am I angry because of just having CAH? the surgery and exams that were done? I don’t know.  These days, I try and figure out where the anger is coming from if that is what it really is and I think being irritated or just regual anger is a different thang then what we be talking about up in here. Then I try to rational deal with it by thinking through the reasons and tryingto find other possible solutions. An example was this nurse that was always smiling at me a) she could of been laughing at me b) might of liked me.

You are always looking toward something CAH levels and it very well might be that but it might be something as simple that your kid is ticked off that they didn’t getthe toy they wanted or watch a TV  show they wanted and are annoyed or maybe their friends dog is lost and they are sad for their freind and nope don’t want to go some place or don’t want to go some place because although you my parents are happy : ) that place is scary for me because you don’t like what I really am ......as a kid I could sence things.    

 

I  do think that I also just get angry the same way my parents do. Luv them as they did pick me : ) They aren’t people that are quick to anger but if they do? Oh no but they are right and anger is then vented out and gone.

I do know that some people will think that I’m angry when actually for me I’m fine but needing to vent or are just grumpy and aren’t we all allowed to be grumpy at times? This goes toward the surgery that was done and isn’t meant to upset but I wonder if the expectation is the Ok we did this to her and she is going to be all sweet 24/7 to suite the illusion .....what in the reality instead of walking on eggs and trying to keep everything a certain way one needs to say "Hey, nope .....not going to be acting that way" and leave it like that. Yes, cry rant ...rave ...get some extra sleep and something to eat or have a peaunut butter, bannana milkshake --- darn good there. 

I might be whatever angry upset  but there is no reason to ever take anything out on Mom and Dad might be fair game ..... I tossed a med student out because I didn’t want to take anything out on him or the little women student that rushed in without knocking ....she actually thought her being there as a female was going to help me  ....haaaa - now if I hadn’t been made to wait three hours and had something to eat then I might of been in a mood to allow them to use me as a teaching tool.

Venting is fine but mean anger isn’t and not fair - I had this retail manager that was a little tirant and if it wasn’t for her? I believe that store would of fell apart and I did have respect for her but her anger and attitude was all bluff ....who new ???? and one morning she goes to me " NO !!!! NOT THAT BOX" so I drop the box and stare her down going in a firm angry voice " What box do you really want ? this one? this one?" and when I walked toward her? she jumped back going  " thatttttt ummmm errrr boxxx is okkkk" the woman was scared and later I did learn that another employee (a guy) did get so annoyed that they did take a swing at her.    Was it the hormones that made me do this or was it because it was a stressful time around christmas or was it because I was out club hopping the night before and needed more sleep?

I’ve made grown men cry because of my temper .....The one was a wuss  and I think he cried at everything but I cry also at times but I regret that my anger made the other man cry.

I do like people and animals. I think that the anger energy  when it is pointed in the right direction whatever that is can be a good thing. I remember once this guy that was driving ahead of me in heavy south florida traffic and his shelves from back of the truck  slide out the pavement next to an on ramp for our express way and it also was a three way stop plus construction was going on. I jumped out of my little Geo and told this big man to let me help him and I proceeded to pick up the shelves and talk trash back to the people that were driving over his shelves and cussing him out for the shelves coming off.  When I worked in food service the cooks would burn the food that you brought back and this would make me angry to go "give me my food .....NOW" they would call me Chucky from that movie and eventually I learned that I liked cooking and spent more time helping them. The anger can be turned into good things and I also think sports is a great outlet ......I loved field hockey and riding horses ......a horse doesn’t care what issues you have and one must learn to get along with the horse.

I’m not a perfect person but I will listen to people and try to see their point of view which might not be right either but it is something to consider. Venting anger is fine and tears are fine ...yelling is fine also like for the cancer I promised myself that yes....I could blow up twice with each doc and that is what I did : )  I think most people get upset when we throw around emotions ...I guess and I find for myself that I will listen ......my parents ...they got maybe because of their age? yes you have a condition that may affect your emotions but when we give you that look ....the looookkkkk this means you have crossed our line ......you are at the end of your leash and as much as you want it ...the world doesn’t revolve around you. Having a bay day or hour ? that is exceptable but you have to shuffle your deck and keep going. I have days but so does anyone else. I tend to get angry with things that i want to go smoothly but life isn’t like that for example when my medical insurance wasn’t filed right away  .....boo hoo for me these people didn’t have the surgery that was done to me or CAH and it’s the least they could do was file my insurance .....how irrational is that one?

I also think in a way that this type of anger makes you a leader even though you might not want to be one but it also has an effect that you get angry in that you think people are doing things to or they are using you or they and this is one that makes me made is that They who don’t even have CAH think that they understand the condition more than you and that is is a easy manageable condition. They make me mad becasue it isn’t fair and they are in control of what is stated about the condition.

This issue about temper does come up over and over and I wish I wish that it would be looked into.    

To sum it up for the first poster : ) The one thing that my parents taught me to help with the anger was to have empathy for others and I try.      

All the best,

Aimee