more thoughts ...my day off I like to write : )

I do think it just isn’t easy anyway you go and also pick on way then you will have experience A. (surgery @ 5) and pick another way they you will have experience B. (surgery @ 8) I think age five was good in my case and I also liked the way I was born because at five? i wasn’t really wasn’t conserned with nor was upset with how I was born and also might of been able to wait until 8 or 10 but the again how would you fit into society becasue that and before is when we get teathered in to one or another .....not limbo. I  have a great memory that helps with my job now to remember the past.

I can remember going to the bathroom through what THE WACKY adrenal gland did and I was just happy that I was going to the bathroom in the big potty but yeaterday I was at a very nice mall ......bling, bling with yachts down the street and I was walking out of the ladies room and passed men going into the men’s room with their sons around eight years old. Born father along the prader scale then one has to consider surgery sooner or later and more and more  I  CAN sorta understand why someone would also want surgery for an enlarged clitoris even though the men that I’ve talked with actually found that .......interesting. I guess it would depend on the size and shape ......that one for me? I would wait but I can understand why others might not.  I also remember the burning feeling in the ears when the doctors just wanted to take a peek at their nifty surgery but then this isn’t specific to CAH and COULD HAPPEN TO ANYONE WITH any condition- this is the perfect thing to get counseling on.   

I can remember being in Jr. High Gym Class after taking a shower and this little blond chick commented on that I had so much hair.....there - even though puberty was on time   ....she was nothing compared to having the Endo and medical students look too ( violating )  and I reply to here why are you looking? the other girls laughed not at me but at the situation of the one girl taking notice. 

I always resented and felt less ....never connected with girls or women ever and can’t understand why the 34%  of women with CAH that are studied by the experts and found to be lesbians + or - bi- sexuals would even like women.

See, the surgery itself will be fine and you will help her with anything else that may or may not happen.

If I had a kid with CAH? I would be just as concerned about what college they are going to.