It’s good to read these posts this morning.... I have had problems with depression on and off most of my life. When I am under a lot of stress it is worse and especially if I have PMS - it’s terrible. My endo has wanted to put me on meds about 4 or 5 times - but you know for me it is fleeting. Not something that is happening all the time, so I haven’t taken anything. At Christmas time I had another bout with not feeling well (as I call it). It does seem to manifest itself in some physical signs (dizziness, lack of concentration, stomach ache, etc) and I went to a local "doc in the box" with my symptoms and the wise old doc said "This sounds like anxiety to me" - yeh - and of course he gave me a script for some antidepressants - lol. Well - it was funny - just having someone say "It sounds like anxiety" to me helped and I starting looking at things differently. Within a day I was much better. Guess I just needed some handholding.

This all seems to happen 3 or 4 times a year for me - I try to pace myself these days and not get too tired - or have too much emotional stuff in one day. I’m a teacher and Christmas (we are wiped by then),  mid February (we don’t have mid winter break at my school), and conference time in the spring (March) - along with the school year starting in late August (an incredibly stressful time of the year - it gets me wiped out every year). These times seem to be more of a challenge than most.

I’m actually a happy person most of the times - upbeat and happy to be alive.  I do think that CAH is a factor with the severity of my PMS though.  I do have one day a month where I just can’t seem to deal with anything. Depression, self loathing, wanting to be alone/but not alone, nothing is good enough, etc. Frankly I’m SICK of it! I seem like a nut case - It all seems perfectly rational for me to feel the way I’m feeling at the time- but the next day I’ll think "Oh my gosh, I was nuts"

Well - if anyone can come up with a cure for that lovely side effect of CAH - bring it on Sister!