oh i remember being 18.  i had such hate and anger about god giving this disease to me, and hate towards my parents, doctors, really life.

my first head doctor, i hated him, i had to see him after i tryed killing my self.  belive me that not right thing to do.

 many years later i got clean and sober.  my sponsor in AA told me to go to a head doctor.  i found a real nice one, it took some time  but i got my head on right. 

i think back to that day i almost died from my attemted suicide.  it makes me shake.  i have a wonderful  life now.  i have help 100rds of people get into recovery and stay clean and sober.

hang in there it does get better.