I am currently in a ’I have a clear head - and thinking straight mood’ so weirdly I am happy. I can actually see a future now because normally when I think about it, it is so hazy; it’s black and just nothing there. No Kids, no marriage - no love life pretty much. I would rather be married to the job because I know I will need that as a distraction.

So what job do I want to have? Well Medicine is on my list but here in Australia its quite hard to get in. I’ve never ever used CAH as an excuse not to do something, or to my advantage. But since I may have to opportunity to change my own life and others - I am so gonna reel out the sob story. The fact that I’ve had a pretty screwy life in and out of hospital only makes me think about other people more. The fact that the medical system is in dire need of compassionate people to help with the recovery and learning process, is a part that somehow I think I could make a difference.

However - there is every possibility that I’ve already stuffed up my final marks with my crazy ideas, so I am willing to do medicine as a postgraduate student.

Therefore I have ’back up’ options where there is no doubt I will get into.

a double degree.....Bachelor of Applied Science (exercise and sport science) and a Master in Nursing......wich could possibly lead to a graduate diploma in midwifery

or bachelor of health science (PDHPE) and a graduate diploma in education.....hahaha me as a PE teacher that is really funny...yet I think I have married the subject.

or a bacheor if applied science (medical diagnostic radiography, nuclear medicine technology, radiation therapy)

So yeah, thats what I am ’thinking’ about doing....I’ve figured that things change too quickly in my life so having all these options that will take me even with a really horrible final mark will mean that perhaps there is a future....You do have to remember that ’my horrible mark’ is not really horrible its just way below the standards I set for myself wich are normally way to high.

Medicine is and probably always will be top on my list...I don’t really care that I could be in school for the rest of my life if I take the really long way. But I am passionate about that - how cool would it be if I never had to be treated by a doctor again????

I am kidding....

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Annalise