Well I am just experimenting - something I know that I shouldn’t do....but you know I am a rebellious and angsty teen!!

Well yesterday I was feeling really overwhelmed - to the point that I was scared of driving myself to work because I feared for my safety...so I had more medication to see if that would settle me a bit....It didn’t work....so I was on edge the whole afternoon - so-much-so that I was concentrating on not doing anything to myself that I ended up with a massive migrane where I couldn’t see.

So today....I knew the potential of not feeling so great was in the cards since I am always feeling down....So I currently havn’t taken my meds....I will take them I promise you, I just want to have proof to tell my doctor that his dosages are screwing with my head....it’s currently 10.30am and they are 2 and 1/2 hours late, and I am feeling really good. I am happy and even better - I can think logically and somewhat rationally.

I am potentially going to ruin all that - well I don’t know since this is simply an experiment....gonna have them now

See ya

Annalise