hey all.....just wanted to say thanks....I’ve been able to think about things a bit more clearly the past couple of days....not to mention getting into arguments with my mum about changing doctors and medication doses....she’s under the impression that its all fine....how wrong she is!!!

Even now I apparently look sick...which I don’t think means there is joy to come...I am so pale and really dizzy all the time....its annoying, and my teachers at school are starting to notice too. It is all a recipe for those really boring conversations where you have to try and explain CAH in a couple of minutes with out crying....Man I don’t know why I cry for no reason - probably the frustration of it all....

I am (I think) going to the symposium this year...I went when it was in Melbourne two/three years ago....Although, I didn’t really like it....it was to overwhelming....PLUS in a ’teen magazine’ that came out that weekend (horrible timing) there was an article submitted by a girl who was 17 at the time titled "I was born with a Vagina and a Penis"......It was all about CAH....had the name of the condition in it and everything....

I was freaking, because I knew all my friends read it and they new the name of CAH because of me....I didn’t go to school for a week....

I am praying that something like this won’t happen again because it could be the end of me.....plus it won’t be so overwhelming at this one.....At least my surgeon won’t be speaking - he came across as a chovanistic pig...(I’d never met him before because we moved from Victoria to Sydney when I was little)....plus I am older and know virtually everything that will come out of their mouths....

Well thanks again....I forgot to mention - I am now being  forced to see a counsellor...happy happy joy joy - not really, I don’t think I will listen too hard.

and I do have to find a new endo in the coming year...I’m not a child anymore so therefore no more children’s hospital...it’s good and bad at the same time i think

well see ya

Annalise