thank you both for you emails thats so nice of you,
wot i did not say it not just the condision it lot of things to i just cant see the wood form the trees as they say i get to the point where any thing and every thing is happning i have been back to the doctors and i have told them till i am blue in the face but it make know difference all they say is take this pill and at the end of the day know pills in the world can chang wot i am and how people see me.
if i could see a futcher then maybe i would try a lot harder but i cant every thing i try or do goses worng i try working and up ill try begin friends with people and they just use me all the time i dont wont this any more.
i thought my life was going to get better after the op i thought i would be able to live a more normal life yes i know i not dieing any more but i am inside. but i still cant work coz stress events me so badly 3 days working 2 weeks in hopsital dose not seam to be very fear. or am i just being stupped i dont now any more i really dont
thanx so much for your replies
becky
