Thanks for the interest but I also feel that you lacked the understanding of where I'm at and this post.
"I could care less about the words as I want to be put back externally to how I was born. It is Ok that you can't answer my post. " This was in reference to the word intersex that the other anons were writing about. It's ok that you weren't able to comment on the link that I provided in the other posts.
I was looking for people with CAH or at this stage even those without CAH that understood my first post. And, if you don't understand the first post or any of the links provided then it's Ok too.
I didn't ask to be put in aroom with a bunch of medical students and have the Endo toss up my gown so they all could admire the surgeons idea of what I was supposed to look like. I didn't ask for the surgery either and they admitted know that I never should of been changed. Do I think they did their best and meant well? You bet and thus the thinking if they took externally who I was away then they are the ones to put me back.
I think you don't have the right to tell anyone to feel any which way. I have rights too and to shove how you think another should feel about their medical conditions doesn't help.
You have no idea whay I'm doing with my life and for me a positve is claiming back a small part of who they were trying to erase. Shut up and be happy is enough to drive someone to drink. I don't fit into the female gender and if you read the medcial link I provided then you would get the some of just don't. Waht was removed wasn't excessive tissue and that remark is insensitive but I don't hold that against you as I imagine that is what you need to call it so you sleep at night. It wasn't excessive but rather my external genitals and yes of course the partial loss of cortisol had something to do with that but also the excessive androgrems didn't stop there. My life has been a lie and I tried to fit into something that I'm not.
I wasn't looking for your help with this but rather looking for someone that understood. Peace if you don't. This post wasn't self pity but rather just trying to find others that understand.
"start to enjoy the simple things in life, like you used to like eating an ice-cream on the beach." Why on earth are you telling me what to do? Why did that blog matter so much to you? Do you think I'm a good writer? Sorry but as I wrote that blog.....the feelings now were the same then and I still go to the beach besides eatting ice cream ummmm I've moved on to gellato because the ice shop closed down.
No more anons Ok if it really mattered ...is that a word? if not then I'm sure someone will correct me but all the anon stuff is just that anon and to take with a grain of salt even though I'm not a salt waster
