Dear Curious:
Not wanting to write to a curious or anon as this really isn't a subject for here anymore but anyhoo.
I'm going to be 38 and have live their lie since as how you put it "the surgery" whatever that is as and I'm guessing you mean clitorectomy, urethroplasty and vaginoplasty that was perform on me?
Come on people when will this condition ever move forward when the terms that are done to us aren't even used?
Please don't assume that "you glorify things that you can't have" as I've never been one to glorify things- this is about not fitting into gender and how dare you tell me that I can't match the inside of how I feel to the outside appearence in another way upsetting that these words are used as to me it comes off as someone that is telling me what is best for my own body and mind. They meant well but as the ped endo finally admitted " you were one of the ones that never should of been changed and the surgeon admitted "that medicine isn't always right but forever changing." Vindication finally.
People go through counseling before they move to the gender area they are supposed to be and I'm just trying to get my outside feelings to match the inside. I've tried to live their way for 38 years and it's been a farce.
I look at pictures of me as a kid and teen and in 90% of the pictures - If I didn't know it was me then Iwould say it was a boy or guy besides from time to time having people ask if I was male or female when I don't put on this front and this has been while I was wearing long hair and a skirt.
Were you able to understand the link provided? the shrinks say for me to be myself and that is also being true to who I am gender wise. Trying to be fem has always been like a hobby. I'm just as comfortable in male or androgenous clothes and with really short hair. I'm also much more comfortable and I admit nicer when I give up on gender.
Gone round and round with this and I was nice enough to hop up on that exam table for your curiosity. Going back or not would be my choice and not a doctors educated and well meaning guess but that isn't the point as this is about having the outside match the inside feelings.
Been to shrinks and on this topic? the answer has been "just be yourself"
