Hey Kassi,
It doesn't sound like you're having a good time at the moment. I hate being confused about how you are feeling, nor about what you think is the 'right' thing to do.
I'll give you my email address, just incase you would rather talk a little more privately - I'm not sure, it's up to you
anna_bryant89(at)hotmail(dot)com
As for your dilemma, do what you think is right. Don't let other people change who you think you are - that's one mistake I've made too often. LOL, I ending up dumping m bf over a year ago because of CAH, but he doesn't know that. He's asked me out again countless times. But I know that what is 'right' for me, is not to be with him.
Hope things settle themselves out a bit. And Hope to hear from you soon